When things are really f***ing hard

When we can’t consciously face something…

When the pain is so deep we want to run away

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When things are hard, I can crumble

I let the suffering take over my being and physically collapse me

Downward…

I feel it, the pain

The loneliness

But then I remember suffering is universal

Suffering will always exist

And when I accept this, I suffer less

I hold onto it less

Oh yes here comes the suffering…

Normal, expected, sign of livelihood….

…Dare I say, beautiful?

I curl up with it, express it, grieve it, embody it

Release

There’s nothing to fear, this was all part of the plan

To face this mountain

To climb Everest

To hold it all

Because oh my god

On the other side?

You wouldn’t even imagine